Archive for March, 2009

A beginning and an end

So, as of last week a big thing ended for me and something new and exciting began. Lets start at the end…..

I finished my contract at Endemol after 6 months working on Snog Marry Avoid. Me, my co-ordinator and production manager were the onyl ones left on the production to finish up so it wasn’t exactly a sad goodbye cause i kno i’ll see them again soon, but it was a little sad to see the end of my first real job! I had so much fun working on the show though and learnt a whole lot. I feel like a completely different person than i did when i first started, and my prod manager told me she thought i did a great job and a lot of other things that made me feel good about the whole experience. Now i’m back to refreshing production base every 5 mins and sending everyone and their mum my CV. it’s ok though, something will come up soon i hope! But, i wanna get a job on a show that’s more up my street this time, cuz although i loved SMA, it wasn’t exactly the type of programme i would sit down and watch by choice. I wanna work on something that, when i tell people to watch it, i actually mean it cause i would wanna watch it too, not just because i feel obliged to tell them. you feel me? (Snog Marry Avoid is still on every Monday @ 8.30pm on BBC3 – you should watch. even though I forget to. EVERY monday. but still, YOU should watch!) lol.

Now, back to the beginning. On March 15th i did my first open mic spoken word performance! I’ve been going to a lot of poetry events recently, since january, cause i wanted to start performing my poetry. i’ve been writing for as long as i can remember, and still have poems from when i was like 5. my dad also wrote poetry, and my aunt, and my grandma writes books for a living so i guess being a writer is in my genes, but as much as i’ve written, i’ve always wondered what it would be like to perform. I’ve watched people do it, and also watched one of my friends Michaela perform (she is a GREAT performer and poet btw, check her out – Michaela: The Birth of a Poet) and wished i could do the same. So i realised, the only person stopping me is ME, so i could either do it and have the experience, or don’t and live the rest of my life wondering. So i made it kinda like a resolution for this year, and like i said, started going to events to see others perform and to learn more. By March i finally felt ready, and Word 4 Word at Stratford Theatre Royal was my first performance! I did a poem called ‘Doubt’ and i think it went well. A lot of people said they were surprised it was my first performance, so i obviously did something right! My lovely friend Sadie (check her blog) came down to watch which was really great, it was nice to have support in the crowd! Michaela was there too and a couple of friends i have met through different the events i’ve been going to!

So, after that one i was on the lookout for another open mic. it really is addictive, but also i want to keep practicing and getting better! I don’t just wanna ‘do’ this poetry thing, i wanna DO it! There’s no point doing it half heartedly cause i won’t get anywhere. i wanna get better and better. Anywho, i did another open mic at Phraseology at Mau Mau bar last week (the 18th) and did a poem called ‘In Limbo’. that one went ok, not as well as the first i feel, cause I was a bit iffy on the last verse so i took my book up there with me, but then i felt like i relied on it too much. so that’s a lesson for next time. The night was great though, the other acts were good, and my girl London (check HER blog too!) came to support me and also my dear Ofuma (Yep, check out her blog aswell…. jeez, all my friends have blogs lol!) so again it was good to have some moral support! ALSO, I used my ‘stage name’ for the first time LOL! I figured I needed something to set me apart, cuz just having my name was pretty boring, so, you guessed it, i’m ‘PHRESH MENTALITY‘! The name actually did originate for that purpose, so the blog name is kinda secondary. I think it’s pretty accurate in defining me too. quite fitting if i do say so myself 🙂

The next one coming up, is big! after some persuasion from my new poetry peeps, i signed up for the ‘punch’ (slam) at an event called Rum Punch. The event runs every first Tuesday of the month and was actually the first ever poetry night i went to back in Jan, so it feels kinda fitting to be doing a performance there. A slam is like a competition and in this one you get 3 rounds where you can do 3 poems and you have times from 5 mins, to 3 mins and then 2 mins (i think). there are 3 judges and you get judged at each round for delivery, audience interaction and lyrical content. someone gets knocked out at each round until you get a winner. so there’s some pressure! It’s on April 2nd. which, I realised fully today, is in about a week!!!! So i REALLY need to get practicing! i want at least a CHANCE at winning, cuz there are some really great poets out there and i’ve got a looong way to go! They’re all an inspiration though and when i watch others perform it makes me want to get better. i know i really need to work on performance, cuz the words are there but they have a much bigger impact when the performance is engaging and different. So hopefully this week i’ll come up with some good arrangements for them. that’s AFTER i’ve chosen which 3 poems to do – now that’s the hard part! I actually should have finished writing this new one i started today, but i ended up doing nothing whatsoever, don’t know how that happened. i think i’ve already switched to a lower gear and i’ve only been off work for one day! can’t let the laziness creep back on me!

So, that’s the happs that i’m happs about in my life in the last few weeks. It’s more exciting than what’s been happening before, i think! I’m really hyped about the poetry stuff, prob cuz i’ve been wanting to do it for ages and i’m finally making this into a proper hobby and something ELSE for me to do as well as work. it’s also something i’m doing for ME, cuz i think i said in another blog that i’m tired of doing extra things that are all part of someone elses big dream, not my own. so i’m getting there yall!

just gotta get a new job now – if you know anyone in TV that needs a runner, holla at me ok! i don’t think i can face going back to the job centre to sign on for job seekers….. not again! I’ve gotta get used to this though, cuz in this industry i’m gonna be back here after every job. Lord help me. AND my bank balance.

Oh, and if any of you wanna come down and support on April 2nd, Rum Punch is at Rudy’s Revenge in High Holborn, starting at 7pm. Come check me out! Here’s the Facebook Event Page

Wow, i feel like this whole blog post is kinda rambled and VERY long. I always write more than i think i will. hopefully it all makes sense. they usually do when i read em thru, which surprises me especially cuz im usually tired when writing. i should be asleep now actually, gotta get up early tomorrow cuz i’m going to a wildlife park with my friend Jenny! So excited – they’ve got lemurs and wallabies and all sorts of cool furries that you can actually TOUCH! yay! (yeah, i love the animals…. 🙂

Well done for getting to the end if you’re still reading! Didn’t kno u cared that much! 😉

Peace and gluten free wheat! ….. (it’s betta for ya stomach don’t u know!)



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BIG talent often comes in small packages

I just watched the below video. It’s of Jazmine Sullivan, when she was 11, singing ‘home’ from The Wiz. (one of my favourite songs! Love stephanie mills!) JAZ WAS AMAZING, and still is. You GOTTA check this out, even if you’re not a fan, she will blow you away. Her vocals are so on point it’s scary, and even more so when you remember that she was only 11. love this girl!

I used to work on an amazing site called Young Black Starz, so i was in the know about all of the hugely talented kids out there. Mainly in America though, but when I say these kids had talent, i MEAN talent. Real, RAW talent. there are so many kids out there with huge talent, it’s crazy how good they’re getting at such young ages these days, and how they’re making themselves known too. The internet truly is a wonderful thing for talent that needs to be noticed. Check out one of my favourite young singers Jamia Simone Nash for instance. She was only 6 when she performed ‘fallin’ at the Apollo Theatre for the first time, and since then she’s really gone places! Her albums coming out soon i think! You all may remember her from My Wife and Kids though… that’s where most UK peeps have seen her.  oh, and on the subject of my wife and kids, please go out and support by buying the DVD of season 1, which is in shops now! I know people in the UK LOVED them some michael kyle, so show ya love people! Help my girl Parker make some money too LOL.

Back to Jamia – Below is a video of her at the apollo again, also singing home. she was 9 when she did this. Check it out below. She’s great!

Jazmine and Jamia have very different voices and i think both of them were amazing respectively but as much as i love me some Jamia, and think that little girl is a prodigy, you gotta love the power coming out of Jaz. No doubt the girl can blow. Although both girls were around the same age when performing the songs, Jamia is still only 12 now, and Jaz is 21 i believe.

Your thoughts?? Whose performance did you like better?

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Sittin on top of the world…. likeee….



I got Brandy tickets yall!!!!!!!! For her concert on my BIRTHDAY of all days!! SO excited, as if you can’t tell! It’s totally fate lol! SPECIAL THANX TO SADIE FOR GETTING MY TICKET FOR MY BDAY PRESENT!! I’m going with my girls, Sadie (of course), Precious and Gbonju. Which will make the night all the more special!

I saw B in concert during her Never Say Never days. Royal Albert Hall, 1998. My concert companion? My mum. My outfit? Satin effect spandex leopard print bootleg trousers and a black top. Height of 90’s fashion dontcha know. Oh dear. I was so excited though, I didn’t know what to do with myself! The memories are fuzzy now, but I still remember really insignificant details from that night. Good times man!

So, when I say i was a Brandy fan, i mean i was a brandy FANNNN. I was SO geeked up over her for SO many years. I even have the doll to prove it! (yes, they made a brandy doll – a whole range of them in fact – and yes, i bought one of ebay. when i was 15.) my love ‘affair’ with brandy has been going on a long time. A good 12 years actually. I first discovered Moesha when i was 9 and i was a fan from that day. Actually, check her out on the new banner! I just remembered that lol. Do u remember the days of watching Moesha on nickelodeon at 6.30 and then the channel turning into Paramount at 7 when Diff’rent Strokes would come on? Ah i miss those days man!

Maybe one day i’ll tell you all of the weird and wonderful brandy fan things i’ve done over the years……. And trust, i can talk your ear off if you get me started, so maybe it’s best not to ask me if you don’t want a life history of brandy and a synopsis of every episode of seasons 1-6 of Moesha.

Can’t waittt!! I’m so excited i think i wanna pee my pants!! Ahhhh!!!! (i guess i’m still as much as a fan now as i was back then.)

There were actually other things i was gonna talk about in this post, but this is all that matters right now and i can’t think straight lol. Going to calm down now……… laterrrr!

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A phresh lick of paint

So how u liking the new look? Most of you know i’m a green freak so this is right up my street! I actually preferred the old theme’s style and i wanted to edit the colours in the css (if you’re an html and web geek u will know what that is…. yeah, thought not…. lol) buuut it turns out you have to buy the css upgrade package to do that, soo, i’ve settled for this one. People want money for everything these days, smh.

I decided to make a new banner too, cause although I liked the other one, it wasn’t bright enough for my liking. Soo, this is the new look Phresh Mentality. We’re still phresher than your cup of OJ in the morning – just a little bit brighter too! I think these colours go more with the name too, dontcha think?

On to other things…. do any of you guys twitter??

omg i have totally got addicted. I have a feeling i’ve written about it before, but chances are it wasn’t on the blog and i’m just getting confused with the amount of times i mention it in daily life. Anyhoo, it is great, so join if you haven’t! It seems like a stupid concept at first – even i was like, why would everybody and their mum wanna know what i’m doing every waking moment of the day, but it turns out that although everyone and their mum might not wanna know what I am doing, they DO wanna know what several interesting celebs are doing. And that includes me. Yes i’m nosy – always have been, always will be. i’m curious by nature. but it is surprisingly fun knowing the ins and outs of their daily life and it’s funny reading their twits to each other and finding out what goes on in their little circles. I actually joined for the sole purpose of reading Erykah Badu’s updates during childbirth, but it’s turned out to be so much more than I expected. aaand it’s also fun when you’ve got actualy friends on there that you know in REAL life to twitter back and forth with. Oh oh and guess who else is on there?! TRACIE MAE!! You know what though, I have a link to the blog on my twitter page so if she ever happens to click, she’s gonna see how much i talk about her on here. Umm, i promise i’m not a stalker…. I even said that to her in a twitter post loool. Oh dear. I think i’ll stop now. Much respect tho, Tracie – keep doin you girl!

so, um, yeah, follow me on twitter if you’ve got nothing better to do, and if you’re a celeb junkie like me, here are some good people to follow (other than Stephen Fry and Russel Brand, who seem to be the only celebs worth noting on twitter according to most papers and mags talking about the site)

Solange Knowles, Kid Sister, Estelle, Janelle Monae, Erykah Badu, Jay Electronica, Marsha Ambrosius, Diddy, ?uestlove, Q Tip, Xzibit and last but not least – B Scoooottt! (if you don’t know, get to know!!) I’ll leave the list at that, but check out who i’m following on there if you’re interested in finding more people. I’ve noticed that ocne you join, random people will follow you anyway, so you can get twits going almost instantly. Gosh, why am i talking abut this like an expert….?

Well, again, i say join if you haven’t! plus, it’s another way to get a 5 min break from doing your work after checking facebook, myspace, your 5 email accounts, your daily round of gossip blogs and then the weather, if you’re realllly bored. What’s one more link to add to the list eh?

Here ends my ode to twitter. Bet you all just breathed a sigh of relief……..

yeah, i just heard you…..

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